it's loud

It was a good day. The job interview went well. Now the day is over and I'm not scrambling to get something done before bed. Suddenly there is a lull and I don't know what to do.

If I take a look, I hardly recognize my life. It's changed for the better, yes, but it's not comfortable and familiar like my old life. And some things are still just promising to change; they haven't changed yet. Hopefully there will be more lulls during which I can sort things out. I believe that enjoying life doesn't really happen while life is happening. It happens during those rare moments when life takes a break. Right now I don't feel like doing anything, even enjoying. I don't think there's anything wrong with that.